november.

in case you didn't know, i miss joe a lot.
on the 13th of this month it will be ten months since the world lost him.
it has not gotten much easier.
halloween has come and gone and our little house didn't get any decorations... joe loved halloween.  we have decorations in the closet, but no energy or motivation to get them out.  (we'll see about christmas.. maybe that will come out, who knows)  djoe (and i) did get dressed up though, and i did put a bag of candy out on the front railing for the little goblins since we weren't home.
here we are, mommy and baby owl:

last year we carved pumpkins. finally. i had wanted to carve pumpkins every year, but halloween came and went and on our front steps our pumpkins sat... with all of their skin and guts in tact. here are the pumpkins (and joe's foot) from last year that will go down in history:

i haven't spent much time with God lately, and boy can i tell.  i have felt more depressed and lonely than i have in a while.  my little girl can brighten any gloomy day, but i still miss joe's companionship and our life together.  without God i get in these horrible ruts, dig myself down, go crazy over simple things, yuck.
i am going to start using cloth diapers, and am excited to save money and the planet.
you will soon be seeing pix of her in them!
this month she will be 6 months old - holy crud, i can't believe it.  here are a couple pix from her 5 month photo shoot:

yep, the yellow newborn tutu dress still fits!